mossyfawnron

Hey all, it’s been awhile since a blog post.

Let’s see, some updates are needed… I lost my job at the greenhouse, and finished my second semester of college. We got another cat- well, kitten- who we thought was a girl and is actually a boy. His name is Hemlock.

I think I need to focus on a job that can become a career. I’m tired of doing random jobs to get by, and staying for only a couple months to a year. I think they last a short time because I get mental burnout and have pain from standing/moving all day. I need something I can sit down, and not be so heavy customer facing. I want to still talk to people, but I just want to do it in a sitting position- that is the issue. My hip pain comes and goes, but flares up when I’m sick or moving a lot. I believe if I get a sitting job, in an office or in a receptionist position, I would thrive. I’m going to focus on getting one.

I wish so badly that I could get a reception job at a piercing/tattoo shop because I eventually want to do an apprenticeship. I’m leaning more towards piercing apprenticeship, because I want art to be my passion not my job. …Yes I know I’m going to college for art. Yes I have conflicting thoughts about that. God, being a human for me is so much dichotomy and I constantly feel like a walking contradiction. It’s my Gemini I guess. I need to make more art about that.

I want to make some physical art on a canvas with oil paint very badly, like a large canvas and lots of colors. It’s just not in the budget currently and I’m really sad about that fact.

Anyways, I also went to Trixie Mattel’s Solid Pink Disco. It was very fun but oh sweet lord it was hot. There were some taller men in the crowd cooling the crowd with their huge fans, but I was behind them and they were only fanning the people in front of them.

I took this picture of her that makes me laugh so hard every time I see it.

…Life is in a weird limbo right now. I’m hoping I get a job before my birthday but I will make it a goal to get one by the end of June at the very most. the air is heavy on me right now. Maybe the subject of my next painting: being crushed by the unknown?