mossyfawnron

So… things are worse. Like, wayyyy worse.

I started my Skyrizi injections, I have taken the two introductory shots so far. I know it takes time for them to work so I’m trying to be patient.

I caved and got nail extensions a week ago, they have since come off. I wish I never got them because my nails are worse than ever afterward. The woman doing my nails was drilling them and making them even thinner than they already were; I tried to ask her to not drill because it hurt but there was a language barrier and she kept going.

I’m trying to remain positive… but one of my biggest hobbies is painting my nails. I feel too ugly to paint them anymore and I’m seriously considering selling my collection of polishes.

My scalp is 100x worse too, I’m trying everything I can to not pick at it but it’s hard. I think I need to start wearing hats constantly because I’m incredibly self conscious of it. I also have considered shaving my head. The only thing holding me back is that my neck and ears would show, and those are covered in plaques too. My hair covers them right now.

Overall, I’m really sad. I wish things were getting better, I wish I was going forwards in my journey but I feel like I’m going steps backwards. I’m miserable in my own skin… right after I just cleared it with Accutane a couple years ago.

I’m begging the universe: please let there be a light at the end of the tunnel, I can’t take this forever!!